It would definitely do me a lot more good to balance my own mind. Instead of attempting to balance chemical equations.

School is driving me crazy. It is really getting overwhelming, though things are a little better after guzheng concert.

I cannot believe the way i screwed just now. I walked into m401 and for some reason, i stood there and my tuner smashed to the ground. Everything inside splattered out and i had to run around trying to pick up the batteries. Then i hit my metronome which was in the pouch i was holding and it switched itself on and started going 'tick-tick-tick-tick' like a bomb -.-" i was like freaking embarrassed. Then i went to dump my things at the percussion corner and went to get music stands. I stumbled there and came back with a spoiled music stand and accidentally hit some xianyue person's head with it (I'm so sorry!!!) ouch. And i had to apologise sheepishly to her while fumbling with the broken music stand. Then halfway through dazu i went off for some stuff and when i came back later, they were recording hua mulan and i messed up my part. Mrs Ee is going to hear some retarded percussionist in the recording who can't even get a simple quaver beat right. Shit. But actually it was'nt really my fault. Hmphs.

And now here i am trying to do my chemistry assignment when my mind isn't even here.
Sometimes i don't even know what i'm doing/thinking.
I'm like what Joey Seah said of herself this morning during school (though i think it is actually true of her)
A jack of all trades but a master of none.
I can study by my results aren't amazingly good.
I can play the piano but i am totally screwing it up nowadays.
I can play yangqin but i suck after not practicing for a while.
I am a good percussionist but my taifeng sucks.
I can dance but i probably won't get distinction for my ballet exam.
Damn. My life sucks.