That's life. Right?

Saw you lying there, so frail and thin. You've lost weight. You put on a smile but the fatigue in your eyes gave you away. I wanted to cry, so so badly. I think you saw it too, the tears threatening to spill. I kept turning away to hide them but you kept talking to me, forcing me to look you in the eye. I wanted to say a lot of things to you, but I can't. And I don't know how to express them. I wanted to spend more time with you, I even planned them but I always procrastinate. I promise, I will try harder this time. I want to make you happy. I will work hard. I will do you proud.